MY MARSYA now 6!

Marsya turns 6 today..she's more understand what's birth-day is all about now..compared to previous years,all she knows just bout a cake,blowing candle and present and more present..

Hermmm..Marsya Hayati....kalau ikut mama..your name will be Suraiya Khadeja!Tapi papa menang jugak..

Marsya - yang subur menghijau

Hayati - hidupku,jiwaku (was name after Dr Sharifah  Hayati Syed Ismail Al-Qudsy)
I adore this lady so much!

All the memories was suddenly flying back to me.

Waiting for Marsya was a quite tough challenge.4 years waiting for this little girl,was full of happiness and sadness..

I still remember i cried most of the menstrual period came..hoping that no more red flag!for like two years or more.

I remembered i almost give up at times.

But we kept trying..trying..and trying..

Then came Ramadhan al Mubarak of year 2003..

I promised myself for not stop praying as Ramadhan was full of blessness from Him..

I woke up most of the night..to have a special precious moment with HIM..with crystal clear tears..my doa was never ending..

Qiyamulail...were like the routine to me..i can feel the sweetness..

I also didn't know where i get the spirit..but its happened smoothly!Its precious!Magic!

Dan firmanNya: "Berdoalah kamu kepada-Ku nescaya Aku perkenankan doa permohonan kamu." (Surah Ghafir ayat 60)

Dengan linangan airmata yang penuh makna..ku panjatkan doa yang tidak pernah berkesudahan..

"Ya Rahman Ya Rahim..ku rindukan bau wangi bayi kecil yang sihat sempurna tuk ku dakap..ku rindukan senyum manis hilai tawa bayi kecil di dalam pelukanku..ku rindu tuk menghilangkan dahaga bayi kecil..ku susukan dgn air ajaib putih suci yang Kau ciptakan di tubuh ku ini lalu melenyapkan tangisan dan airmata nya..andai benar apa yang telah ku mimpikan itu..perkenankanlah..amin ya rabbal a'lamin.."

Ramadhan 2003 ended with redha and happiness..alhamdulillah i completed the whole 30 days of fasting.

Then came Syawal..Again we celebrated only 3 of us..darling honey,diamond sofiya and i..Its was fine..happy as ever!

On the 4th day of Syawal..the journey of visiting my in laws begin..One after another house..morning till night.Tired?Yes but happy..

Me? Dah rasa macam nak demam..

Then came Abg Jali's house turn..the rest of the sibling proceed the journey..while the 3 of us stopped at a klinik nearby..Am i pregnant??

Its not the main reason i went for the doctorlah..It was because i'm not feeling well..macam nak demam..

Simple je..macam biasa, doktor cek la apa yang patut..then...

The doctor checked my pulse..suddenly he simply asked me to have a pregnancy test..

I was like..haaaa??

Yes..its true..my menstrual period was 2 weeks late! tapi perasaan tu memang dah buang jauh-jauh..taknak mengharap sangat..As i said..redha..

And..

and..

and...

Its positive!IM PREGNANT!!

When the doctor said.."awak ni bukan demam apa..demam sebab bertukar hormon..tahniah!"

With tears we cherished the best gift in Syawal!Alhamdulillah...

We were hugging each other infront of the doctor.."we were waiting for this for 4 years doctor..finally!"-darling honey..

And he whispered right to my ear.."thank you sayang..i love you.." OMG he's crying..

Suddenly i remembered 'the night'..ye betul-betul ingat..the feelings,the sense,the spirit,the ambience,the particular spot where i whispered my doas..

This is one of my precious moment in my life..and this is the perfect precious gift from HIM..

mama doakan marsya menjadi anak yang solehah dan berjaya dunia akhirat..

She was born on 26th June 2004 at SJMC, 4am in the morning...welcome sayang..

Marsya inherits most of my features,my characters,my behaviours..sometime by seeing her behaviours..the way she talks..the way she's gazing..the way she's smiling,laughing  dan semua lah!i feel like its tickle my soul..haha..its like a flashback to my previous day...

At the age of 6..Marsya already makes the whole family so proud of her..She was excellent in kindy..She was the teacher's pet!Kesayangan Puan Miza ~syukur..

I'm proud of you Sayang Marsya...All the best in whatever you do..mama always be with you..